As I wait for the radiation oncologist to contact me, letting me know what my next steps are, I’ve been reading a book about breast cancer. The book goes into detail about everything concerning breast cancer: types, procedures, treatment options, treatment side effects, etc.
The more I read the book the more I don’t like my cancer treatment options. There are no win-win options. Some of the long term side effects/collateral damage are disconcerting. It’s discouraging, to say the least.
I feel like a child being dragged along kicking and screaming to a place I don’t want to go. That’s how my week has been. It’s been a real struggle! As I told my husband while sitting at the kitchen table crying, “I don’t want to do it! I don’t want cancer treatment!”
When we get discouraged we sometimes want to quit or run away. I can’t even tell you how many times I have considered literally running away from this whole situation. Just get in my jeep and drive and drive. But what would that get me? Where would it get me? I’d be no better off than I am right now. As a matter of fact, I’d be worse off.
Jonah ran away. God had given him an assignment. God told him to go to a place he didn’t like to preach to people he didn’t like. To Jonah, the assignment was undesirable and unwanted. When he ran away he experienced nothing but trouble. But God didn’t let Jonah off that easy. God continued to pursue him until Jonah hit rock bottom.
Sometimes rock bottom looks like the inside of the belly of a whale. Can you imagine the smell? Rebellion stinks!
Jonah prayed and the Lord rescued him. Then told him to go back and complete his assignment. Jonah, learning his lesson, obeyed the Lord, went to where God had told him to go and did what God had told him to do. As a result, many people repented and were rescued from destruction. Unfortunately, Jonah’s attitude never improved. He obeyed reluctantly! [Jonah 1-4]
I don’t believe the Lord has given me breast cancer, but I do believe He has allowed it. Therefore, it is His will and part of His plan for a greater purpose.
Isaiah 53:10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush Him and cause Him to suffer, and though the Lord makes His life an offering for sin, He will see His offspring and prolong His days, and the will of the Lord will prosper in His hand.
God’s will is to use my health crisis for His glory and for the good of others including myself. For my good by using it to change me and to draw me into a deeper relationship with Him. For the good of others by using me to share my experiences with those that need encouragement and hope as they go through a crisis.
I don’t want to be like Jonah; running away from God and the assignment He has given me. I don’t want to have a bad attitude going into cancer treatment.
Who knows how God can use this undesirable, unwanted situation? Maybe there is someone in the cancer treatment center who needs hope and encouragement. Maybe that someone is me. Who knows? God knows! He has a plan! It’s not my job to understand. It’s my job to trust and obey.
I don’t want to reluctantly obey, I want to go into treatment with a good attitude expecting to see God move in amazing ways; changing me and those around me. And by God’s grace, I’ll be able to do just that.
I want to respond to my assignment the way Jesus did.
Luke 22:42 “Father, if You are willing, take this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.”
Hebrews 12:2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer, and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before Him, He endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
As a result of Jesus’ obedience, our sins are forgiven and eternal life is available to all who accept His gift.
What unwanted, undesirable situation are you facing today? Job relocation? Cancer treatment? Dialysis? Jury duty? Being kind to a grumpy neighbor? Diet change? Exercise? Disconnecting yourself from negative friends? It could be anything, seemingly large or small. If it’s an assignment from God, it’s important.
God is wanting to change our perspective on the assignment He has given us. He wants us to see it through His eyes; from His perspective. Imagine the amazing things God could do in us and through us if we just decide to trust and obey Him.
Will you willingly accept your God-given assignment today? Will you accept it with a good attitude, expecting to see God work in amazing ways in you and through you?
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.
Prayer for salvation: Dear God, I know I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe Jesus Christ is Your Son. I believe that He died for my sin and that You raised Him to life. I want to trust Him as my Savior and follow Him as Lord, from this day forward. Guide my life and help me to do Your will. I pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.