I’ve been wanting to write a blog all week. I’ve felt like a racehorse at a starting gate. I even tried to write one on Monday but ended up deleting it because it just didn’t feel right; it wasn’t coming together. The timing and content were all wrong. God was working on something in me and He wanted me to wait until I could share it with all of you. He loves for me to be transparent and tell on myself. That way He gets all of the glory. As it should be!
I’ve been a little impatient with God lately. Impatient to the point where I’ve actually become angry with Him. Have you ever had a situation where you were sure God told you to do something so you stepped out in faith and did what He told you to do but it didn’t turn out the way you thought it should? Or you were even right in the middle of doing what He told you to do but there seemed to be road blocks everywhere? Well, that’s where I am. Its left me asking questions like “why?” And “when?” Then the Lord reminded me of something this morning.
Once my mom shared a memory with me about something I did when I was a little girl. I don’t remember doing what she says I did but I know it’s true because I have a scar that proves it. One evening my mom had prepared dinner as she always had. The food was very hot. I was very hungry. My mom was trying to explain to me that the food was too hot to eat as she blew on it to try to cool it off. She didn’t want my mouth to be burned. I didn’t want to listen to her and I didn’t want to wait. I grew more and more impatient. Then I became very angry with her and threw a fit. I started crying and screaming and running around. Then it happened. I ran right into the corner of a brick wall. I was hurt very badly. I have a scar and a slight dent in my forehead due to the injury.
Isn’t that just like us with God? He’s prepared something so good for us and we can smell it. It smells amazing! It smells so good that it makes us more and more hungry for what He’s promised as the end result of our obedience. We want it now! But it’s not ready. He’s trying to encourage us through His word that it’s coming and He’s telling us to just be patient. But we want it now! And just like I got angry with my sweet mom, who only had my best interest at heart, we get angry with God and do something that causes ourselves pain and leaves a scar.
We all bare these scars. They come in all shapes and sizes. Some are the scars of giving up hope too soon when our breakthrough was just around the corner. Some are scars of taking control of the situation and doing things our way only to realize we made a mistake. No matter who we are our scars always look like regret. But thankfully that isn’t the end.
God wants to use those old scars of impatience to remind us of our past mistakes so that we won’t make the same mistakes again. He wants us to remember that we can trust Him in the waiting because He knows what’s best for us. It’s in the waiting that makes the fulfilled promise taste so much better than we could have ever imagined it would.
Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in Him.
Psalm 130:5 I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in His word I put my hope.
Ecclesiastes 7:8 The end of a matter is better than it’s beginning, and patience is better than pride.
Colossians 1:11 Being strengthened with all power according to His glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience.